亲爱的

她问 为什么那么轻易就放弃了呢

4年的感情 不是说断就断的

可是亲爱的

首先放弃的人 是我吗?

首先把自己隔离的人 是我吗?

你应该知道不是

我没有把你忘记 真的

只是 当你的世界离我越来越远 而城墙越筑越高的时候

我根本就没办法进去里面 跟上你的步伐

亲爱的 是我的错吗?

我曾经很努力很努力的 想越过那条看不见的大海

到你身边去 一起走

可是这样的牵手 很像是奢侈的

不 应该说 想太多 因为那根本就不可能会发生的吧

亲爱的 也许你根本就不懂

从6月3日那天起 我就给了自己一个期限

半年或一年 要让自己很纵容自己的等你

来证明我是真的很喜欢很喜欢你

可惜这些 你都没有看见

还是或许 你根本就不在乎这些所谓的喜欢

我真的真的很累了

就像现在一样 你也许玩得忘了时间忘了地点忘了我的担心

而我 却像个笨蛋一样 不知道你在哪个国度 不知道你在干嘛 不知道你安不安全!!

亲爱的 跟我说 如果是这样的话

我还要再坚持什么呢?....

没什么好留下了吧..

曖昧

曖昧是，比好朋友再親一點，但比情人遠一點。

曖昧是，你會常常在MSN等他在線。你會設定他一在線時，系統會有online alert﹐每當見他幾天沒有在線，你就會有些擔心。

曖昧是，你會不時去他的Info或日記看看有沒有更新，而且你會留意字裡行間，他對你有沒有甚麼暗示。

曖昧是有感覺，然而，這種感覺不足以叫你們切切實實的發展一段正式的關係。

曖昧是甜津津又同時酸溜溜的。往往從未開始，已叫人不安，患得患失。

曖昧是，別人問你們是否在戀愛中，你張口結舌。

曖昧是，兩個人都會互相猜度。他是不是已經暗示了甚麼？我是不是自作多情。

曖昧是有進一步的衝動，卻沒有進一步的勇氣。更怕一旦進一步的話，便會失去。

曖昧是，你很想多走一步，但又怕會嚇怕了他。

曖昧是明白人生有太多的無奈，現實有太多的限制。你知道沒有可能，但又捨不得放手！

boredom kills me

i feel that my circle of frens is shrinking these days...i m so bored at home til i can sleep for 13.5 hrs..which is not normal at all. and the rest of the day i just stared in front of my computer, not doing anything much, thats y i created my own blog. haiz, i do not know whre my frens hav been..din see even their shadow in msn or ym at all. where cud they be? why din ask me to join them for yum cha sessions or shopping? i m feeling like being abandoned, huhu. time just flew away in an twinkling of an eye. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING BEFORE MY HOLIDAYS END. else i would be in depression again as my result gonna release soon in the 3rd week of the break T.T i do not know wat i hav written in the exam.

i seem to hav alot problems nowadays
1. major quarrel with my sis, just bcause of a guy she doesnt like me to mix with.
2. thinking too much coz i just hav too much time to b in a daze
3. exam stress, i cant fully concentrate on my studies, this is not the usual me.
4. always worried for my results
5. i don hav own income..i nv work before zzzz sad case

my 1st blog

my 1st blog...i m always lazy to create one, as i hav lame reasons for not creating it. but i realize that this is my only place to express my anger, love, depression..all kind of feelings. i do not inform any of my frens bout the existance of this blog as i treat it as my diary. diary is something personal right? :p sure we do not want others to read bout my secrets. others = my frens or someone i knew. ok, u may say that i m introvert kind of person, but u do not know wat i hav experienced before in my life ( not very bad experienced lar). People will not forget wat u hav told them and those stories will remain forever in their mind. next they will spreading the news around, thats y rumours exist in our world today. haiz...thats all for now, looking forward for the next post :D